be your teenage dream tonight

So ok, I just watched the Darren Criss episode of Glee. And words can not describe how I feel. Happy, of course but kind of on a high (I know that sounds completely stupid and wankery but still...).

I mean, I know I've said it before but it's like I live in this bubble where everything is great and wonderful and magical (see, wouldn't you like to create a bubble like that for yourself). Where all these great creative people just fill my life with all this wonder. I'm a nerd (fighter) and a proud fangirl and all my friends are either nerds or a little quirky. And we live in this place, where it's ok to be like that. I know, I know, I know, I've said it before. But it's a place where everyone is looking forward to zombie walk, and doesn't bat an eyelid when we say we're going to the medieval fair and will talk about Doctor Who while going there (with me covering my ears because I hadn't watched the 'Fez's are cool' episode).

And I know, not everyone is like that. There are people out there who don't openly over the top love things. Now the openly may have me there, I do wear my Serenity and Harry and the Potters shirt occasionally, but to look at me you would not think that I was the geek-obsessed girl who is typing this post. (you would have to see me sitting in the back of the lecture room reading a comic book or The Great Gatsby to figure that out).

Now what I'm trying to say is that I have this little bubble and it has all these things in it and my little bubble is shared by a lot of people (I in no way think I'm unique, which I will talk about at some point) And suddenly our little bubble just grew that little bit bigger and if we put them all together they may be big enough to fit the whole world.

I think we are apart of the un-mainstream-mainstream and this proves it, we've got something too good not the share with the world.

We live in a time and place where we have the oportunity for people to go 'don't watch that crap they're feeding you, please think for yourself and here's some user generated content for you' (which is giving myself WAAAY too much credit).

I also by no means beleive Harry Potter fans were the first people to like Darren Criss, we just kind of embrased him and all the other starkids a little, in our over the top, obsessive way we like to.

And it's just so great for the mainstream media to embrace him as well. I like to think that we are changing the world a little at a time, through the creative things we get to experience. And you know, maybe we can change the world. Change the way people think about culture and literature. To turn not being open-minded and well read into the minority. And not just what the mainstream tells you you should be reading, or watching or thinking.

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Ok, that rant is over but it kind of leads into another more selfish rant. I am completely terrified that I, how do I describe it, do things just because it's not mainsteam, so much so that it's exactly another type of mainstream. Getting caught being an alternative kind of sheep. I mean, you latch on to something that you love and it leads you down this path that you think is really freaking cool but do you really like it or was it just because that first thing was great and now you're stuck. and i think a lot of people have this problem.

It's the liking things less because other people like it. Which I guess, I'm starting to realise now is a bit silly. I should have faith that I like what I like. And if other people like it too, well, then we all just have fantastic taste.

But that's kind of not my point. I like to think of myself as a little alternative but do we all just fit into the same alternative mold? and is that a bad thing. and I guess like before, I only my feelings and that is that I love what I love and...

Gosh darn it, I don't even care, Joss Whedon will always make me cry, Neil Gaiman leaves me in awe and JK Rowling is the reason I am who I am today. And I do not care how many other people feel exactly the same way.

Until next time,
Katherine