Food, Glorious Food.

I'll put this question out there, do I disrespect the food I eat? that's not a very grammatically correct question but you get the point.

I am 21 years old and have a BMI of 18 (but I'll say 18.4 to put me in the 'normal' category). So as you might expect I naturally eat a little less than other people. I just went away with my friend and she couldn't get over it (and what I mean is she's been less vocal in the past).

So the thing is, I leave food on my plate. I admit it. But I don't think it's entirely my fault and blame. I mean, yes, it's wasteful. And I do like to take a little bit of everything. But I do believe that a normal portion size is grossly too much.

Now anyway on about the 5th day, she pulled the starving children in India card, when we said to throw out some pasta because we had already reheated it (the pasta didn't have meat in it so I think it was ok but still, I don't like to risk it). And my natural response to that is, eating the food we have will not help the starving children.

She told me that I was being disrespectful because I didn't eat the food I was given (that's how you know we're friends). But to me the idea of stuffing yourself so full that it makes you sick, is akin to this disrespect. Because I tried to eat more when she told me she didn't like it. I of course, vehemently verbally disagreed with her, but internally I set myself the challenge (do I have a holier-than-thou attitude or what?).

My friend told me, that I want to change the world whereas she is interested in changing herself. I think we need to do both.

I need less spirituality from people and more action. Goodness, I feel more and more like an atheist all the time. I have a hard time understanding an entirely emotional reason for doing something, "I feel this so..."

The thing is, I hate when it is all talk and no action (which is basically me a lot of the time). And sometimes it frustrates me that we live in the confines of a world where it is difficult to make these changes. I mean, I have the disheartened belief that it matters very little what I do in comparison to the major players in the world. But does that mean I will not do the things I believe are right? no. I feel guilty with myself that I do not do exponentially more, but, in life there is always a but. We really need to get over that.

And God. I'm judgmental and wasteful, good for me... yikes!

This day in 2010

Aung San Suu Kyi was released from house arrest. We've still got a long way to go but it's a step in the basic human rights direction.

be your teenage dream tonight

So ok, I just watched the Darren Criss episode of Glee. And words can not describe how I feel. Happy, of course but kind of on a high (I know that sounds completely stupid and wankery but still...).

I mean, I know I've said it before but it's like I live in this bubble where everything is great and wonderful and magical (see, wouldn't you like to create a bubble like that for yourself). Where all these great creative people just fill my life with all this wonder. I'm a nerd (fighter) and a proud fangirl and all my friends are either nerds or a little quirky. And we live in this place, where it's ok to be like that. I know, I know, I know, I've said it before. But it's a place where everyone is looking forward to zombie walk, and doesn't bat an eyelid when we say we're going to the medieval fair and will talk about Doctor Who while going there (with me covering my ears because I hadn't watched the 'Fez's are cool' episode).

And I know, not everyone is like that. There are people out there who don't openly over the top love things. Now the openly may have me there, I do wear my Serenity and Harry and the Potters shirt occasionally, but to look at me you would not think that I was the geek-obsessed girl who is typing this post. (you would have to see me sitting in the back of the lecture room reading a comic book or The Great Gatsby to figure that out).

Now what I'm trying to say is that I have this little bubble and it has all these things in it and my little bubble is shared by a lot of people (I in no way think I'm unique, which I will talk about at some point) And suddenly our little bubble just grew that little bit bigger and if we put them all together they may be big enough to fit the whole world.

I think we are apart of the un-mainstream-mainstream and this proves it, we've got something too good not the share with the world.

We live in a time and place where we have the oportunity for people to go 'don't watch that crap they're feeding you, please think for yourself and here's some user generated content for you' (which is giving myself WAAAY too much credit).

I also by no means beleive Harry Potter fans were the first people to like Darren Criss, we just kind of embrased him and all the other starkids a little, in our over the top, obsessive way we like to.

And it's just so great for the mainstream media to embrace him as well. I like to think that we are changing the world a little at a time, through the creative things we get to experience. And you know, maybe we can change the world. Change the way people think about culture and literature. To turn not being open-minded and well read into the minority. And not just what the mainstream tells you you should be reading, or watching or thinking.

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Ok, that rant is over but it kind of leads into another more selfish rant. I am completely terrified that I, how do I describe it, do things just because it's not mainsteam, so much so that it's exactly another type of mainstream. Getting caught being an alternative kind of sheep. I mean, you latch on to something that you love and it leads you down this path that you think is really freaking cool but do you really like it or was it just because that first thing was great and now you're stuck. and i think a lot of people have this problem.

It's the liking things less because other people like it. Which I guess, I'm starting to realise now is a bit silly. I should have faith that I like what I like. And if other people like it too, well, then we all just have fantastic taste.

But that's kind of not my point. I like to think of myself as a little alternative but do we all just fit into the same alternative mold? and is that a bad thing. and I guess like before, I only my feelings and that is that I love what I love and...

Gosh darn it, I don't even care, Joss Whedon will always make me cry, Neil Gaiman leaves me in awe and JK Rowling is the reason I am who I am today. And I do not care how many other people feel exactly the same way.

Until next time,
Katherine

And if you'll love me then I'll never play Halo again.

and speaking of being all swoony. ahem
The orginal makes me swoon more, for obvious reasons, but those two are just too cute.

and can I just say I'm living this too. (that was supposed to be 'loving this too', but 'living' is pretty close as I listen to those two about once every 25 minutes as that seems to be my concentration span).

I'm not very productive today.

Until next time,
Katherine

That just makes me a dumb human, like you

I am so totally all swoony for Darren Criss at the moment.

and a yeah...

and yeah, we all kind of miss the fro and basically all of this


But hey, we get this


and isn't that totally awesome.

Until next time,
Katherine.

We're not unreasonable

So um, yeah, haven't updated in a while... yeah, mainly it was because I didn't want to create a google account to sign in to this bad boy. Why yes, I am that lazy.

The last few weeks have been pretty good, I mean, I turned 21. That's kind of exciting in a not very exciting kind of way.

So, let's get on to the good stuff. Zombie Walk. It's that time of year again where the undead masses converge on the streets of brisbane and try to infect the world (all why raising money for the brain foundation). I had forgotten how unfit I am, as at the end of the walk we all kind of collapsed (we're not even too sure if it was the end of the walk, well, it was for us, we kind of just left). But it was really fun this year, as it was last year. There were a whole lot more people and I saw a lot more disgusting things but there were less 'exciting' zombies I think and more just, 'have a go' zombies.

Picture Time:





(see I have friends)

I need to work on my zombie poses because if I'm going to continue in my ways of being an attention seeker, the posing is going to need to get better. Like, I did that same generic pose for all my pictures and it looks good but we need some variety in our undead lives. Also, I am not as so many people thought a 'rape victim' or 'prostitute' zombie, I am in fact a zombie Spice Girl (which let's be honest, is kind of the same thing).

And now it's exam time. Fun, fun, fun... my first one is tomorrow and then after that the world ends. I mean, I start studying for the next one...

Oh ok, so I'm also still really obsessed with Steam Punk stuff, mainly because I get to create costumes with no real specifications, just what I think would look cool. and I finally have a semi-steam-punk look to go with my pirate wench skirt so yay. I am also looking forward to busting out the sewing maching to make my own version of this

And um, it was the Glee Rocky Horror episode this week, which was fun. I rushed home from a choir concert (which I was in) to watch it. Yes, that's right, screw actual choirs, I want to watch one on TV. Our choir conductor ended the show early (it was pretty informal) and I'm pretty sure he had the same idea as us. Must. Watch. Glee. But yeah, had a chat with some old teachers, which was nice but missed some I would have liked to talk to, oh well, next time. Speaking of which.

So...um, yeah.
Until next time
Katherine.